Things That Are Cool About "Hamilton" (With Recommended Listening)

The newest of my musical theatre loves.

So, Hamilton is a musical about American's founding fathers, specifically following the life of one Alexander Hamilton, who was especially young and especially prolific and often overlooked.

I don't personally know much about the founding fathers, but listening to this musical, you don't really have to. It plays itself out. It's cool, and you don't have to be an American History buff in order to enjoy the thing. The story itself will do that. And the music too.

Noteworthy: this musical was written by the same guy who wrote last year's school musical, In The Heights. Lin-Manuel Miranda is, I'm beginning to suspect, an actual genius. Because In The Heights is wonderfully rich in character and the music is absolutely unique, from song to song, and in comparison to any other musical. As a composer, the man is insanely talented, as well as as a rapper. Hamilton, naturally, shares that quality, but with an added bonus: the musical is essentially sung through.

Once you have the soundtrack, you have the whole musical.

It's pretty cool to have the entire plot to the musical ready for easy-listening.

Anyway, there are so many cool things about this musical that I just need to talk about because I am in awe. There is nothing, as far as I can tell, that this musical could have done better.

Cool Thing #1: Race

I'm just going to get this out of the way, though I doubt it'll make too many people uncomfortable.

Here's the thing. I think it's fair to say that, after In The Heights especially, which focuses a lot on Hispanic heritage, that Lin-Manuel Miranda is of Hispanic heritage. He's Puerto Rican, to be exact. Anyway, this doesn't matter, but it kind of does, because it adds an interesting layer to the fact that he's playing Alexander Hamilton onstage, since the founding fathers were fairly white.

And here's the thing: most of the rest of the cast are played by non-white people too.

Thomas Jefferson? Black. Aaron Burr (Thomas Jefferson's vice president)? Black. Angelica Schuyler, Hercules Mulligan, Marquis de Lafayette, George Washington? All black. Elizabeth Schuyler? Asian.

In fact, interestingly, the only character I can think of who was cast as the actual race of their character was King George III. Take from that what you will, having one of the only white people be the face of this detached arbitrary control that the Americans were trying to free themselves of.

Anyway, this has provided a lot of food for thought about the diversity of America inserting itself in its not-so-diverse history, and making people who are generally excluded from that history part of that narrative. And this wasn't casting "race-blind", either - it wasn't "we were going to find someone white but they were all so talented." This was a deliberate statement they made in casting. Lin-Manuel Miranda said something somewhere along the line that was essentially, "When people start doing this in schools, they'll have to keep this in mind. If they look like the actual founding fathers, they messed up."

I just think that's really cool, and a relevant statement to make, and a thought-provoking way to make it.

Okay, moving on.

Cool Thing #2: Ensemble as Greek Chorus

This is a thing you don't see that much in modern musicals. I think it's fair to say that, in general, the ensemble is only used in situations where there are conceivably a lot of people involved - for example, in Les Mis, during the scenes when the rebels are preparing for the revolution, or in Rent, when the songs are about Bohemian lifestyle in general, not one person's perspective.

Hamilton doesn't do it like that. And you could see a similar use of the ensemble in In the Heights, but this sort of takes it to the next level.

Much like the Greek Chorus of yore, the ensemble is used to provide background information (as in the song Right Hand Man) or provide insight into a character's motivation (doesn't happen as much because the characters tend to do that themselves, but sometimes - see It's Quiet Uptown), or comment on the situation themselves, possibly reacting as the audience is (see Say No To This). They also sometimes serve, if only briefly, as a character's inner monologue - usually with Aaron Burr's "Wait for it" mantra, or with Hamilton's "I am not throwing away my shot" mantra.

It's not a common thing to see in modern theatre, but this play makes a pretty good case for the Greek Chorus to reemerge as a modern convention.

Just listen to how effective the technique is in Say No To This. Believe me, we aren't meant to excuse Hamilton for his, hm, perfidy, even if he excuses himself.

Also Maria Reynolds has an absolutely gorgeous voice.

Or even better, this song is the best example I can think of, since it does a bit of all three - but um, fair warning, I cried like a baby the first time I heard this...

But just listen to how they use the ensemble! That's such a cool way to work it! The ensemble has such a good sound! Why doesn't every musical do this?

It kind of is part of the whole point of the musical - reincarnating things that are historical, and stereotypically dull, in a way that is new and fresh and riveting. Having the ensemble do its job as a way of providing various insights to the audience is, obviously, not a new idea, but it's old enough that it seems new, you know? And when it's modernized like this, it really does seem like a completely different idea. It's unique, and it works.

Cool Thing #3: The human side of history

Let me just say that I have honestly never spared a second thought for the founding fathers of the United States. In fact, I've barely spared a second thought for the founders of the country I live in. It's just never seemed that interesting to me, because it's so hard to humanize people that lived all that time ago. How can you think of these historical figures as anything but unattainable, unreal visions of achievement, you know what I mean?

Hamilton focuses a lot on the character flaws of everyone involved. Hamilton's pride, his ambition, his workaholism, Aaron Burr's reluctance to act, and his occasional jealousy, Eliza's self-esteem issues, etc. And this is a really great thing, because it makes them human. Honestly, what got me hooked on this musical was the song Aaron Burr, Sir, because of the goofiness of John Laurens, Marquis de Lafayette and Hercules Mulligan. Nowhere else are you going to get such a clear picture of the fact that these guys are.... just a bunch of guys.

The fact that they're beatboxing. The "eyyyyyyy" when Mulligan makes the your mother joke. The fact that he makes a "your mother" joke. Lafayette's "wow" at Mulligan's verse. Literally, what a bunch of doofs.

Not to mention how much emphasis it puts on the motivations of everyone involved. Hamilton gets a song about just what his plans are, as does Aaron Burr, both of which are kick-ass, in very different ways. I'll get to that in a bit, though.

But there are so many songs in here that emphasize the utter humanity of the characters. Nonstop is wonderful for the flaws it blatantly portrays in the character of Alexander Hamilton, as well as the jealousy in Aaron Burr. Dear Theodosia is wonderful and touching in both Burr's and Hamilton's love for their respective children. But the one I think is the most human is Take a Break.

I love this because it still has the flaws Hamilton has that were introduced in Nonstop - namely, his unstoppable ambition and his workaholism - but it also has the touching joy of seeing how his son is growing, AND, for a bonus, his rather conflicted feelings toward Angelica, his wife's sister. It's kind of an in-between song - it's dead-set between a couple of showstoppers - but I love it, because it seems really real and makes Hamilton more human and less imagined and idealized. I utterly adore the part where he's hearing his son's "surprise" he arranged - it might just be the most adorable parenting scene in the history of anything.

Cool Thing #4: Musical styles

He thought this through. It's a cool thing.

I'd give you a couple songs to compare and contrast, but luckily, in a slightly incredible feat of songwriting, Lin-Manuel Miranda manages to do so in a single song:

Things that are awesome about this: Samuel Seabury was an actual person who wrote a pamphlet called something like, "Free thoughts from a farmer on the workings of congress" or, you know, something along those lines, essentially placing himself as a royalist and explaining why the the revolutionaries are nothing more than reckless children. After three different versions of this, Hamilton wrote a pamphlet in response, calling it "Farmer Refuted". Seabury had no response.

Anyway, (here comes my actual point), aside from this awesome shout-out to history, listen to the styles of music. Seabury's lines (like King George's, in his solos) are slow, sung more classically, and rather old-fashioned, in its 3/4 waltz-like time. When Hamilton starts talking over him, he's rapping, a much newer, much more innovative style, and one which allows him to say more in less time. Miranda places rap and hip hop as the music of the revolution, and the contrast is never starker than it is in this song. This continues, by the way. When King George, who is everything the revolutionaries are fighting, has something to say, he says it in a more traditional kind of song, while Hamilton and Co. are usually rapping.

Also awesome about this: the fact that it's written so that Hamilton and Seabury can use the same sounds/words while saying completely different things, i.e Seabury's "They have not your interests at heart" while Hamilton says, "The have-nots are gonna win this, it's hard to listen to you with a straight face." That is such an intricate piece of song-writing, I can only imagine how long it took to figure those lyrics out.

But, see, the significance of music doesn't end with the traditional singing of the royalists versus the innovative hip hop of the revolution. Because after the war ends (yes, this musical goes through many years), we meet Thomas Jefferson.

Jefferson's a little trickier, because, as I understand it, he wasn't really part of the revolution, and was actually in France at the time (correct me if I'm wrong). He's also at least a decade older than Hamilton and Co., which adds another level of how his style maybe shouldn't be the same as the others, since he wasn't part of the revolution that their hip hop came to represent, as well as being a little too aged for that kind of thing anyway.

Instead, Miranda has him using something a little jazzier, a sound that no other character really has. It's a bit ragtime, a bit boogie-woogie, a bit jazz, a bit funk and soul - interestingly, the latter two being the predecessors of hip hop, representing his age. Compare:

Thomas Jefferson's introductory song, with:

Hamilton's introductory song.

Lin-Manuel Miranda thought this through. Take nothing for granted. Everything is symbolism. Like Lord of the Flies, but you can dance to it.

Cool Thing #5: Character foil

A.K.A the one thing that is a hundred percent guaranteed to make me love something if it's done well.

And what makes this especially interesting is how Aaron Burr and Alexander Hamilton are real-life historical character foil for each other. Lin-Manuel Miranda really capitalizes on that.

Essentially, you've got two orphans who are trying to work their way up to get themselves respectable positions, and they're going about it through the same routes - the revolution, and then politics, etc.

Except Hamilton had a childhood that was absolutely Dickensian, and Burr grew up with relative privilege.

And Hamilton is working on his legacy in order to make a name for himself, to make a better life for himself, and Burr is preserving the legacy that his respected parents had.

And Hamilton is all about taking every chance he gets to go for what he wants, not throwing away his shot, while Burr is all about waiting for just the right moment to promote himself or forward his agenda.

And a biographer whose name I can't remember (Chernow?) said something along the lines of Hamilton would talk for two hours straight, and Burr would say as much in a half hour. Both brilliant and intelligent, but Hamilton can't shut up, and Burr talks only strategically.

And yet here they are, both respected veterans of the Revolutionary War, both very competent lawyers, both ambitious politicians. And yet going about it in completely different ways, ways which set them apart from each other immediately, ways which ensure that they will never be able to understand each other.

Isn't that just fascinating? Doesn't that immediately make for a great story?

I just have a real weakness for character foil. Hence I adore: Artemis Fowl, Merlin, the W.A.R.P series, etc.

But the interesting thing about Hamilton and Burr is you get this distinct sense that, in a slightly less competitive environment, they could have been good friends. It's this kind of tragic sense of these two people who obviously respected each other but couldn't understand each other, which ultimately led to the historical fatal showdown. In the musical, even at the showdown Burr is struggling to understand what Hamilton's goals are.

It's just a really interesting story thing, because Burr and Hamilton are constantly going against each other without even trying, and it creates a lot of tension even as other story points unrelated to that rivalry happen.

(I mean, Hamilton can't open his mouth without making like eight new enemies, but still).

There are two songs that highlight this clash of personalities more than anything. You've heard Hamilton's introductory song, My Shot. Now listen to Burr's introductory song:

If that doesn't immediately emphasize the ultimately fatal difference between Hamilton and Burr, then I don't know what does.

Cool Thing #6: The intricacy/level of the music

It's not all absolutely eye-popping in its intricacy, but some of it... yes. Farmer Refuted, which I showed you earlier, is one which comes to mind for its intricacy of the lines, what with the timing and the incredibly cleverly written lyrics.

Nonstop too. Especially listen at the end, when it's reaching its climax and all the lines are overlaid. It's kind of awesome.

Or how about Guns and Ships, which is the fastest song in musical theatre history, reaching a staggering 6 words per second? And all in a cheesy French accent. Lafayette (Daveed Diggs) is freaking incredible. The struggle is when I get this stuck in my head and am unable to rap it because I'm not on that level. All I can do is Burr's part: "He's constantly confusing, confounding the British henchmen/Everybody give it up for America's favourite fighting Frenchman!"

And then I groove my face off to what is probably one of the fastest raps you'll ever hear.

Just imagine the skill of all the musicians and performers involved in this thing! And the brilliance of the writer (why yes, Lin-Manuel Miranda is kind of one of my heroes). Just, not only is it groovable, it's actually, like, really impressive.

Cool Thing #7: Themes 

In multiple senses of the word.

You could say that this musical manages to express its primary themes through various repeated themes.

Let's talk about the first "themes" in that sentence. Hamilton is very thematically heavy, mostly talking about the idea of legacy and the problems that arise when one focuses all their energy on creating one. Though we are undoubtedly meant to like and sympathize with Hamilton, the musical also spends a lot of time acknowledging how messed up his priorities can be sometimes.

So anyway, there are a lot of ideas that the musical spends a lot of time trying to communicate. The handy thing is that Lin-Manuel Miranda knows exactly how to effectively use repetition to get his ideas across. He did the same thing in In the Heights, and he does the same thing here.

So the first thing I can think of is from the opening number, Alexander Hamilton. His name, Alexander Hamilton, is sung with this very specific melody, and it's used many times after that, such as when Lafayette says they need Hamilton to win the war in Guns and Ships, and when Burr demands how Hamilton could make such a deal in The Room Where It Happens. Mostly, it tends to represent things that happen that only Hamilton could make happen. Interestingly, it isn't always exactly the same - when Hamilton makes the infamous mistake of publishing the Reynolds Pamphlet, Thomas Jefferson and James Madison use the theme, but it's rendered sort of atonal and strange, jarring to the ear. Yes, this was something only Hamilton could make happen, but only because he has no concept of the difference between professional integrity and personal integrity, and it isn't exactly a point in his favour.

Or, for a different example, I've mentioned that Hamilton is always working with the idea of a legacy in mind. That tends to be represented by the theme that George Washington sings during the war, and it follows Hamilton a while after that: History has its eyes on you. It's sung during Nonstop, and Hurricane, and I think a couple others. From the same song that George Washington sings, he says, "You have no control who lives, who dies, who tells your story" which, coincidentally (or not) is the name of the finale. The idea of a legacy follows Hamilton around, as do these themes.

Or, for even more examples, Eliza Schuyler has a particular line, and it comes to have slightly different meanings within different situations: "Look around, look around, at how lucky we are to be alive right now." At first she says it in The Schuyler Sisters, which, while introducing the sisters, is just as much a love song to New York. Later, she says it to Hamilton when he finds out she's pregnant, and again during Nonstop, after the war. Her constant mantra is, I don't know, gratitude, I guess, which is directly in contrast to her husband, who, Angelica laments on multiple occasions (in yet another repeated theme), will never be satisfied.

Plus of course, the repeated themes that Burr and Hamilton have: Wait for it vs. I am not throwing away my shot.

The point is, yes, there's a lot of repetition going on, but it all serves a purpose for the story, and it isn't tiresome, as the different situations they're used in add levels to the meaning and just make the play richer as a whole. It's also very clever and effective.

Cool Thing #8: No, literally, this happens

Thomas Jefferson and Alexander Hamilton rap battle for George Washington's approval.

Angelica Schuyler says the words: "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal/and when I meet Thomas Jefferson, Imma compel him to include women in the sequel" which could be one of the most badass things any woman has said in any historically set production.

"Whatever you heard, Jefferson started it." Hamilton, literally, are you five?

"Now Hamilton's skill with a quill is undeniable/But what do we have in common? We're reliable with thE LADIES"

"Oceans rise, empires fall/We have seen each other though it all/And when push comes to shove/I will send a fully armed batallion to remind you of my love." - George III

"SIT DOWN, JOHN, YOU FAT MOTHERFUCKER!" - Alexander Hamilton, about the John Adams administration.

I don't know why this line makes me laugh so much but it does: "Let's show these Federalists who they're up against!/Southern motherfucking democratic Republicans!" - Thomas Jefferson and James Madison.

"I'm a general. Wheeeee!" - Charles Lee at some point during the Revolutionary War.

And, of course, possibly my favourite stage direction of all time, even topping "Exit, pursed by a bear":

"Eliza Schuyler beatboxes maternally."

Cool Thing #9: Breaking the fourth wall

Hamilton does this a surprising amount, and I suppose it's hard not to be self-aware when you're a hip hop play about the Founding Fathers, but it's never done really with the idea of winking at the audience at how clever they are. As far as I can gather, there are three main occasions where this happens (there could be more I'm missing, I haven't actually seen the play unfortunately).

First of all, during the song The Reynolds Pamphlet, Thomas Jefferson, who is overjoyed with Hamilton's public failing of character, is dancing around the stage throwing these pamphlets at anyone he sees. He's making it rain with these pamphlets. Then James Madison gets involved, and somehow King George III does too, because why not, I suppose. They're running around with these pamphlets flying every which way, and Hamilton is standing in the middle of it all, in the eye of the hurricane, if you will. Jefferson then leans down and hands one to the conductor in the orchestra pit. That's the first breaking of the fourth wall that I can recall. It's kinda funny.

The next one is at the beginning of the song The Election of 1800. It's just been a real emotional few songs, with Stay Alive Reprise and It's Quiet Uptown, which has made me cry on multiple occasions. Then here comes Jefferson's theme coming in, asking, "Can we get back to politics?" And James Madison responds, dabbing at his eyes, voice cracking with emotion, "Please?" That's the second one I know about.

The last one I can think of is less humourous and more simply magical. In the very last song, Who Lives Who Dies Who Tells Your Story, it asks that very question, especially because Hamilton's story is a difficult one to tell, having been shot by a man who was vice president, having all his old enemies become president. How easy it is to destroy someone's reputation.

So in comes his wife Eliza, who he most certainly wronged, but she decides she forgives him, she puts herself back in the narrative, and she tells his story. She talks about how she speaks out against slavery on his behalf (he and John Laurens wrote many essays against slavery - cool guys, them) and how she talked about George Washington for him, as he was his mentor, and how she opens up an orphanage for them to take care of kids in need, the kind of care that Hamilton didn't have when he was growing up orphaned in the Caribbean. It's a beautiful song.

Anyway, at the very end, she asks, "Will they tell your story?" And then she gasps. Because she sees the audience sitting in the theatre, watching them, hearing his story, hundreds of years later. It's a beautiful, magical, totally theatre moment and it's one of my favourite things to ever happen on a stage.

Cool Thing #10: Who tells the story?

I've already talked a bit, briefly, about the themes of this play, but one of the subtler ones is the fact that the story changes a little depending on who's telling it. That's shown here, when Eliza and Angelica describe how they first met Hamilton (also please listen to them in order also please just LISTEN TO THEM because Eliza's song is the most adorable thing you've ever heard and Angelica's song is the most beautiful and badass unrequited love song in the history of musical theatre).

Or, on a bit of a different note, the song The Room Where It Happens. On one hand, it's super catchy and Miranda claims it's one of the best songs he's ever written, which I'll believe. But on the topic at hand, the interesting thing about it is that we're witnessing the deal Hamilton makes with Jefferson from the perspective of someone who wasn't there when it happened. Which, you can imagine, changes how it's told a little bit.

Also, I just really wanted an excuse to recommend these songs because they're probably my favourite off the entire soundtrack and I need to spread the love. If nothing else, listen to these three. They're awesome.

But on the topic, you'll see how the story changes, and how it's sort of as if Hamilton's story is being told by everyone but Hamilton. It's kind of interesting foreshadowing to the big Who Lives Who Dies Who Tells Your Story song.

Cool Thing #11: Groove your face off. 

I mean, if nothing else, that's one of the main reasons to like this play. Musical theatre has never been so irresistible to dance to (except, maybe, for In the Heights).

Have I sold you on it yet? Have I convinced you this play is awesome and thoughtful and clever and fun and progressive and everything you could ever want? I hope so. I hope you find a way to appreciate it as I appreciate it, even if you don't fall in love like me. Because even if it isn't your thing, you must see that it's a pretty cool, pretty amazing work of art.

Parked: Movie Review

I just watched the movie Parked. It was odd, artsy, indie, and almost entirely character driven, with a plot thin enough that if the characters hadn't been so strong the movie would have been nothing.

But the characters were strong.

So I really liked it.

A brief summary: A middle aged man named Fred is living out of his car. He's attempting to get some form of aid, but due to the fact that his dwelling isn't a "fixed abode", is continually getting refused. Then another car appears in his car park, and Fred meets Cathal (pronounced KA-hal, because Ireland), a young man also living out of his car, having been kicked out of his house by his father... I think (I missed a bit of the beginning dialogue because Cathal's accent took some getting used to). Also he's a total drug addict, but at least he doesn't inject, right?

Anyway, the two of course end up forming an unlikely friendship, one that helps Fred to see his life isn't over, and Cathal to see that his life isn't exactly on the road to success. Also Fred meets a lady he likes, but finds himself unable to be entirely honest with her because he's ashamed that he's living out of his car.

Here's what I liked about the movie:

The cinematography. I love indie films, because the way they use their cameras tend to be so much more interesting - I presume that being indie lends itself to a certain freedom to take risks. It worked here, and it added a certain poignancy to a few moments.

The characters. Fred and Cathal are a lovely foil for each other, but equally interesting people on their own. Fred was a surprise for me, especially, because pardon me for saying that a movie about a depressed middle aged man is not exactly top of my list. However, this character managed to get past that for me - I think it was the warm center the actor was playing for him, that he isn't a cynic by nature, but by circumstance.

And, of course, Cathal managed to hit one of my major soft spots - a troubled but essentially good hearted person with an aloof exterior but actually cares a lot.

But what I liked about it can be summed up by this statement I saw upon doing a little research: "It is the most gentle movie about homelessness and drug use you are ever likely to see."

Yeah, that about sums it up.

Because, see, it is about homelessness and drug use. Both those things play very large roles in the movie. As a result, it could have been very dark.

But it wasn't.

In fact, despite things not exactly working out for anyone in the end, at least not the way we the audience would have probably liked, it's extremely hopeful. And, often, joyful. No, Fred doesn't quite end up with the girl, and no, Cathal never makes up with his father. But that's because it is, simultaneously, a realistic movie - just one with an optimistic view.

Which is honestly so refreshing. I'm tired of people equating realism with cynicism, because those two things aren't synonymous. What this movie does is acknowledge that circumstances get crappy, but that the people in those circumstances aren't bad people because of it. Even the way the movie treats Cathal, who is arguably much more to blame for his problem than Fred is for his, as a victim of circumstance. Innocent? Maybe not. But human - the movie goes to lengths to point out everyone's human-ness, showing fears and flaws and passions as much as possible - and deserving of compassion.

And I just think that's awesome. It's maybe not terribly unusual, in terms of tactics to take for such a movie, but this movie manages to strike an almost perfect balance between the encroaching darkness and the light moments that not only temper it but pretty well define the film's tone. It managed to take some pretty heavy topics and go, "But here's the thing..." and turn it around so that, in the end, it was more about living than it was about all the things that could end up killing them.

Also, the acting was really on point. I've already talked about my surprise on actually finding Fred to be a likable character, and that is largely to do with the actor's playing of him. The actress who played his love interest was very good too, and of course, Cathal's characteristically jerky energy and his charisma and the wonderful way his softer moments were played was brought by the endlessly gifted Colin Morgan, who I will never not love as an actor.

Really, it was all just so good. I recommend this movie muchly. It's gentle without being patronizing and realistic without being pessimistic and sentimental without being flowery and just all in all extremely enjoyable. Please watch this movie. It'll make you smile. I promise.

My Most Influential Books

I don't know why this occurred to me, but I was thinking about what books or authors have really influenced me - in terms of my thinking, or my writing, or the ideas I'm left with to this day, and just in general the person I've become. And I can think of quite a few that were important in influencing me one way or another. So, here we go, in no particular order.

The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy (Books 1-5) - Douglas Adams

I have an edition of this that has all five books in one volume, and let me just say: this is a book that I have read cover to cover on multiple occasions, and yet it still manages to get me off guard every single time. I always laugh out loud somewhere. I don't know why - I've heard all the jokes before. But it's still funny, every single time.

And I think the reason that I'm framing this as an influential book rather than simply one that I enjoy immensely is that it really has influenced my sense of humour in ways that not many other works can claim to do. I first read it when I was still kind of impressionable, and I think you can tell that my sense of humour's a little bizarre because of it, a little off-kilter and, shall we say, imaginative. I've adopted Ford Prefect's deadpan, and the ability to laugh at pettiness a la Arthur Dent, not to mention the ridiculousness that defines the entire series. This book is basically my sense of humour in a nutshell.

There's also that, despite the ridiculousness of the entire thing, the characters do have some meat to them - even if they're not likable (which they aren't, but that doesn't mean they aren't imbued with their own twisted charm), they do manage to justify most of what they do. If you can dig through the nonsense and find that, it makes for an interesting read. Mind you, that is a lot of digging to be done - which is fine, because the nonsense is why I loved it in the first place.

Inkheart - Cornelia Funke

This might just be the single most influential book of my childhood. In it we find villains so evil and so compelling that from there on out, every single villain of their type had to be compared to them. Here we find what I believe to be the first morally ambiguous character who I felt actual, fierce affection for - I'm referring to Dustfinger, of course, our one neutral player. Here we find interesting adult characters, imbued with their own motivations and views and humour and goals - this is a rarity in the 8-12 section at the book store, let me assure you. Here we find a kid, who's strong enough to defeat the villain herself, and yet very human.

All of this was pretty important for someone like me, who was just figuring out the stories I wanted to tell as a writer, and who, to this day, constantly writes stories with active adults who don't necessarily take over the story from the younger main character. Who, to this day, takes childish glee from villains who are evil simply because they're evil, and not because of some tragic backstory. Who, to this day, is filling her characters with varying degrees of moral ambiguity, and tends to enjoy those ones more than the straight-laced heroes.

On a note more related to my general life, Inkheart was also filled to the brim with a head-over-heels adoration for books. The house described in the book, with books stacked floor to ceiling throughout, is kind of my dream mansion. And the fact that by the third book, Meggie (yes, her name was really Meggie, it was basically a book written for me, about me) is learning to write her own stuff rather than just read it, and even early on the writer, Fenoglio, is arguably one of the heroes of the story... and here I am, years later, laptop filled with stories no one ever asked me to write.

I think it's fair to say that this book was a pretty big influence in my impressionable years.

The other thing is, I'm just going to say it: Inkspell and Inkdeath weren't nearly as good. It was cool, I guess, to see the Inkheart world play out, but by that point there were so many storylines going on that had basically nothing to do with each other that I couldn't tell you a single solid thing that happens in either of them, and it made recreational reading a little bit exhausting, trying to remember everything that was going on.

But Inkheart. Inkheart, O Inkheart. It is a book of pure magic and brilliance, and the best thing about it? The ending has enough closure that I can safely pretend that the sequels didn't happen, if I want to.

While we're at it, let's pretend the movie didn't happen either. That was a harrowing experience.

The Thief Lord - Cornelia Funke

Yeah, for a while there, Cornelia Funke was my favourite author. The Thief Lord was, I believe, the first book I read by her, and that one was very important in the things that I found myself fantasizing about.

It was important because, A) Prospero and Bo are probably one of my favourite sets of siblings, and as much as I love Bo for his innocence, as an older sibling I related to Prospero far more. B) as much as I love the evil-because-they're-evil villains - and I do, which I can only explain by saying that my childhood fantasies were full of them and I do feel a certain nostalgia for that simplicity - I also have a soft spot for villains who aren't really villains, but are only antagonists because they're on the wrong side of the plot - like the detective who, in the end, is really only doing his job. It sucks that Prospero and Bo have to go back to people who hate them (or, as I recall, they loved Bo and hated Prospero, but had to get them as a package because custody wouldn't let them split them up... but I could be wrong about that), but it isn't really the detective's fault that he was hired to find them.

And finally, in the most obvious impact it had on me.... I daydreamed about Venice on many an occasion after reading this book. It's impossible not to. Funke clearly thinks Venice is beautiful, because it's one of the first things you hear about and it comes up maybe every three pages, and now I can safely say, having been there largely because of this book... she's right. About all of it. Venice is where magic is born.

I even got a souvenir to honour The Thief Lord. I got a mask, one of the ones with the long noses, like the kind that Scipio wears when he meets with the other kids.

Percy Jackson (books 1-5) - Rick Riordan

This one's slightly superficial in the influence it had on me, but as well as generally being a book that I always found extremely fun, and entertaining, and kind of hilarious, it was also the beginning of my obsession with Greek mythology.

And I can safely say, looking back years later, as a human encyclopedia of Greek myths, having written a book set in Ancient Greece for that exact purpose, that to be the thing that got me started there is kind of a big deal. Because I am as passionate about Greek mythology as I am about, well, anything else in my life, and that came from this.

So thanks, Riordan, for letting me discover something that I can revel in.

Also, like Inkheart, we do not discuss the movies. Ugh.

Artemis Fowl (books 1-3) - Eoin Colfer (it's pronounced Owen, apparently)

Now, let me be clear: there are eight books in the Artemis Fowl series. And I adore every single one of them with all of my heart. I can go into detail about why I love each one. The series isn't complete without them all. But I'm only going to talk about the first three books here, because I don't think the books after the third one were really influential in the same way, wonderful as they were. I think it's just a matter of time, and when I was at my peak absorption rate. (It also might be because I wasn't as blown away by the fourth book as I was by the third, so it's hard to consider it as influential as the others).

So, books 1-3.

Firstly, and importantly: the books are all about intellect. The whole series is. There are... at least five geniuses by the end of the series. And, being the sort of kid who took great pride in doing well in school and being "gifted", I greatly enjoyed reading stuff where everything relied on the characters being smart. This would not be the last series I read to focus on that, either. More on that later, though.

Mostly what I remember from the first reading of the first book is that it left me really... confused. I enjoyed it for its individual scenes, but couldn't quite grasp it as a whole, and that was because, as far as I remember, it was the first book I'd ever read where the protagonist and the antagonist weren't exactly clear-cut. It started from Artemis's perspective, but he was clearly not a good guy. Then again, there are scenes clearly meant to evoke sympathy for him. Then again, he's kidnapping a fairy. Then again, the fairies aren't exactly innocent themselves, hence them ultimately trying to kill everyone in the house. When I was in my evil-because-they're-evil-type-villains phase, this was really confusing. Who was the villain? Who was the hero? Artemis was the winner, but he was bad, wasn't he?

The second book (The Arctic Incident) was much easier for me to get, because it painted both the fairies and Artemis in a much more heroic light. It didn't undo what had been done in the first book, and in fact, a lot of it was driven from the events of the first book, but it introduced a common antagonist for both Artemis and the fairies, which meant that there was no longer any confusion in who I was meant to be rooting for. And it was because I enjoyed that adventure so thoroughly that I was convinced to revisit the first book.

And boy am I ever glad I did. With just that little bit of maturity, just a little more openness to colours between white and black, (desperately avoiding a Shades of Grey pun here) it suddenly moved from confusing to really interesting - and ultimately, extremely entertaining (the humour remains one of my favourite things about the series). I also think re-reading it was a good idea in general, because there's just... a lot of information being thrown at you, as well as a lot of sort of Chekhov's Gun sort of stuff. When you catch it on the re-read, it's way more fun.

So, moving into the third book, I had a way better understanding of the characters and where they fit on the hero-villain spectrum (the first time I'd ever come to recognize it as any sort of spectrum at all), and allowed me to just appreciate it for what it was. And that third book, The Eternity Code, remains one of my favourite books in the series, possibly my single favourite book in the series. And part of the reason I love this book so much is because, for once, Artemis can't actually do anything about what's happening to him. It was really cool to see a situation where, for all of Artemis's intellect, he was essentially helpless. The whole book involves other people trying to help him - following his instructions, perhaps, but ultimately, he can't help himself. This is reflected first when Spiro kidnaps him, and secondly when the fairies insist on mind-wiping him. And this is a storytelling thing that has stuck with me to this day - I can name many of my favourite works where at least one of the protagonists are completely helpless. Something about it hits me, and this is the first book I can recall where that happened so blatantly.

So yeah, there was a lot of door-opening stuff happening in Artemis Fowl for me.

Misery - Stephen King

Speaking of the protagonist being helpless.

I sometimes think of this book as my first Stephen King book, but that isn't quite true. My first Stephen King book was The Dark Half. Misery was, however, my first Stephen King book I ever had that I-don't-want-it-to-end-but-I-can't-stop-reading-it thing going on (it would not be the last).

I had never before seen the inner monologue rendered quite like this. It was quite something for thirteen-year-old me to experience.

And at least two thirds of the book is entirely Paul's thoughts. It has to be - by the very nature of the story, Paul is alone in bed, unable to move for a lot of the book. That makes for a lot of inner monologue. It could have been dreadfully boring.

Instead it was, and still probably is, the most compelling book I'd ever read.

Just, to watch him descend, so slowly, so naturally, into Annie's madness, until the reader understands exactly what Paul means when he thinks about the Bourka Bee-Goddess or Scheherazade, or Cthulhu, or "Now I must rinse." It's nonsense, but you get it anyway, because he's led you there. And at the very end, when you hear it all from an outside character's perspective - for a single chapter we see Paul from the point of view of a cop happening upon the scene - you suddenly understand just how mad it all is, and it's shocking and eye-opening and heartbreaking. It's such a journey.

Stephen King's inner monologue is one of my favourite things. With all its tangents and forays into pop culture and sentences that go on forever. It's very truthful to how the human mind works, I find, and at the time when I first read it, it seemed to me to be an extremely innovative piece of writing. I admit, I try to channel that style a little when my own characters are in moments of high stress.

Marcelo in the Real World - Francisco Stork

I don't think this was the first "teen" book I ever read and enjoyed, but it was definitely one of the first. I found - and often still do - that teen books tended to revolve around romance too much, and that just was not something I found compelling at all. Usually, I still don't.

This book has a bit of romance, but without it being all-consuming, and with a far more important plotline.

Because, most significantly, the main character, Marcelo, is autistic.

The book is in first person from his perspective, and is all about Marcelo becoming increasingly independent and how he handles it. As someone with an autistic brother, it was a really interesting read.

(And I know that people are going to think of The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime, which is a fine book and all, but I honestly like this book better. I prefer this one because it deals with the whole "real world" thing - how are disabled people going to handle it if they aren't being coddled? - in a way that The Curious Incident doesn't. Also, I found Marcelo's family drama to be much more realistic - and therefore, more interesting to see Marcelo react to - than Christopher's, while still handling basically the same issue, i.e getting people off the pedestal. But that's just me).

Anyways, that was the first time I'd ever seen a really compelling novel that was so realistic and not-fantasy, and it hit pretty close to home because of its general subject matter. So that was important.

Stargirl, and also Love, Stargirl - Jerry Spinelli

Stargirl, was a book which many people I know loved, but I just couldn't because I couldn't stand the character whose perspective we stay with for the entire book. Love, Stargirl was extremely interesting because it was kind of a sequel, but also kind of a character study.

For clarity's sake, I'll explain some basics of Stargirl. The first book is about a boy who goes to a normal school and spends a lot of time trying to fit in and be normal. Then this new girl shows up, who calls herself "Stargirl." She's the kind of girl who, for instance, calls herself Stargirl, and changes her name at her whim, and her family and parents just go with it. She's very whimsical and creative and unafraid to be exactly what she is. It isn't exactly in defiance of normalcy, or to make any sort of point, but sort of parallel to normalcy - she's honestly only doing it because she's expressing herself. Anyway, the main character kind of... falls in love with her? I guess? And they have a brief thing, but ultimately he rejects her because he can't stand to be so outside the norm all the time. It is framed as the biggest mistake of his life.

I couldn't stand the first book, because, as much affection as I felt for Stargirl, I couldn't for the life of me stand the main character, because rejecting people for one's own reputation has just never sat well with me. Still, I'm listing it as influential because I did have such a negative reaction to it, and it led me to understand the very idealist perspective I still have, which is that we should embrace our eccentricities and quirks and the eccentricities and quirks of other people. I was very aggressive about this, originally, largely as a reaction to Stargirl - I was not going to be the asshole that the main character of that book was, and I was going to call someone out on it if they were.

Love, Stargirl was much gentler, and I enjoyed it much more not least because the narrator is Stargirl herself. And because Stargirl is such an eccentric yet accepting character, it helped that aggression about self-expression sort of die down a little, and become more about, just, doing your own thing.

The reason I have to list these books in tandem is this: Stargirl, the first, introduced me to the idea of, shall we say, peaceful protest - my first interpretation was that Stargirl was deliberately being the way she was to show up the sheeple, if you will, and that's what I emulated because I loved that character and wanted to be like her. Love, Stargirl kind of completed my education, there, because since Stargirl really was just doing it for herself, and because of her own actual gentleness toward other people, I got significantly less aggressive in my attempts to be different and ended up being more... myself.

I credit the assertive self-expression of my middle school years at least in part to these books.

The Mysterious Benedict Society (book 1) - Trenton Lee Stewart

Remember how, when I was talking about Artemis Fowl, I mentioned that it wouldn't be the last book series I ever read to put such an intense emphasis on intellect? This is the other one.

Now, there are three books in the series (the third of which, being one of my favourites, follows the trend of helpless heroes which I already talked about with Artemis Fowl... there are patterns in the things I respond to). But I'm only counting the first one as "influential" because I can't trace anything about myself back to either of those books in the same way. I read them and I adore them, but I can't think of anything about myself that they opened the doors for.

So, the first one.

As I mentioned, it's intensely an advocate for intellect, but it isn't quite as... singular in the definition of intellect as, for instance, Artemis Fowl is. All four of the main characters are portrayed as extremely competent and/or genius, depending on your perspective, but they definitely specialize differently. One character, Sticky, is probably the closest to conventional academic intelligence, in that he has a great memory and knows just about everything about, well, just about anything. One other character, Reynie (who serves as the audience's eyes as well for most of the series) is fairly academic as well, although not quite in the same way. Reynie's much more about being clever than being knowledgeable - he's not one for memorizing facts the way Sticky is, he can't give a lecture about history or science in the same way, but he's always the quickest to solve a riddle or puzzle because he has that gift of thinking outside the box.

But aside from these academic powerhouses, we're also met with Kate, who is all about the physical and all about the emotional all the time, but she's seen as gifted just the same. And Constance, whose intelligence is, perhaps, hard to pin down, but it all becomes clear by the end. Let's just say her area of specialty isn't exactly conventional either, but she is undeniably a genius.

And the thing is... I admired all these characters. I, the academically driven girl who still (to my detriment, I suppose,) likes to place intellectualism as one of my defining traits, found myself reading about Kate with just as much admiration as I looked at Reynie. In order to accept this book, I had to shelf intellectual elitism for a bit, and that was a good thing.

That being said, this fed my love affair with "being gifted" as much as anything else. Just because I widened my perspective on how, exactly, someone could be gifted, doesn't mean that I came to value that any less. ARE YOU A GIFTED CHILD LOOKING FOR SPECIAL OPPORTUNITIES? asks the first flap of this book, and I'm not sure any one sentence has ever caught my imagination quite as quickly.

The other thing is that this book is not quite fantasy - if anything, I suppose there are some science fiction elements - but more than anything, it's... surrealist, I suppose. This isn't the first book I'd ever read to have surrealism in place of a solid "real world" or "fantasy world" - I think the Series of Unfortunate Events pretty much has that covered. It is, however, the first surrealist book I'd ever read that didn't draw attention to its own quirks on purpose. It's sort of the equivalent of deadpan, if that could be conveyed through writing. Personally, I'm a big fan of deadpan.

(Tangent: Actually, after thinking about it, I'd consider the Series of Unfortunate Events to be a necessary prelude, at least for me, to understand The Mysterious Benedict Society - it gets one used to a surrealist world, it reveres being smart in quite the same way, and some of the humour is very similar, though it's less deadpan and more with a wink toward the audience. However, the main difference, I would say, is that The Mysterious Benedict Society doesn't talk down to you in quite the same way - there are clever in-jokes throughout the book that I only just caught on this year's re-read. That's nothing against the Series of Unfortunate Events, the footnotes and explanations to the audience are part of its humour and charm, just as the assumption by The Mysterious Benedict Society that people will get the references is part of its particular charm.)

I guess why I think The Mysterious Benedict Society was influential was because, while it did address things that had been done before - surrealism, humour, focus on intellect, etcetera - it tackled them in very different ways from how I'd seen it before. And that's a really cool thing to discover, because, though this book has some similarities to the Series of Unfortunate Events and Artemis Fowl and a variety of other things, it can't be called a rip-off of any of them. It's entirely its own identity. I've never read a book like it and probably never will again.

It had me playing around with the style of my writing, for sure.

So, yeah. Those are the books I would say most influenced me as a writer and as a person. (You may also take it as a list of recommendations if you wish - every book on here is awesome in its own very special way. I've re-read every single one at least twice, so age is no object).

I just thought that was interesting to think about.

Ten Things I Love About Merlin

I mean, look, I already wrote a post about Merlin that, while reiterating my love for it over and over again, pointed out a lot of things that annoyed me/was kind of questionable about the show.

So, with the caveat that this show does obviously have flaws and I am not above acknowledging that, this post is all love. I mean, knowing me, I may throw in an aside about something that could have been done better, but this post is meant to be all love and happiness and unabashed joy about silly little things. Oh, and spoilers abound.

So let's get started.

10. The score

No but literally the music is so good you don't even understand. It's my homework music. I wrote a six page essay to four seasons worth of Merlin soundtrack. (A six page essay I got an A+ on so...)

Like, to be honest, the least impressive piece of music is the actual theme song (with its stupid time signature which is apparently 3/4 but doesn't sound like it and makes my constantly-mentally-writing-sheet-music-brain confused and irritated).

My personal favourite is the Labyrinth of Gedreth, which, while only showing up on the season 4 album, has been being used since season 1 onward. It's beautiful and suspenseful and the way it layers over itself is amazing and I love this piece of music a lot.

But there are other good ones as well. The Sword in the Stone is suitably big and triumphant sounding, Fighting in the Market is one of my favourites because it's all fun and The Forged Seal is just... every Merlin and Arthur banter scene ever, so how can you not like it? OH also The Call of Destiny, before it goes back into the theme song. I could name more, but I won't. Just know that the music on this show is really good and definitely has its own personality, which can't be said for every show's score.

9. The Mor-people

By which I mean Morgana, Morgause and Mordred.

I kind of think of them as the triad of successful antagonists, and I love this show's version of them.

(And by successful I mean that I bought into them as an audience, not that they actually, y'know, succeeded.... though they did. Sometimes).

Morgana's every iteration through the seasons - first as the compassionate lady of Camelot, then as the falling-apart-at-the-seams witch hiding behind a title, then smirk-y evil double agent, then smirk-y straight-up evil sorceress, then downright-insane-but-capable-of-love high priestess... there were flaws, but I did enjoy the story, and the descent, because it did make a certain amount of sense, and I think, though I affectionately laugh at the smirking in season 3, that it was played well.

Morgause remains one of the most competent guest-star villains on the show - she and Aredian can happily share that title, I think. That she was Morgana's gateway to evil, and that she's apparently the sort of person who can't even let herself die without furthering her own agenda, is something that I love about her as a villain, along with some other details that make her character infinitely more fascinating - that she puts Merlin in magic-proof chains without knowing what he is (supposedly), that she was willing to give up her undoubtedly victorious battle for Camelot in order to save Morgana. Things like that make Morgause a pretty memorable character.

And finally, Mordred. Oh, Mordred, you poor Merlin-gone-wrong, you misunderstood sweetie. As you can probably tell, I consider Mordred to be something of an alternate Merlin - he showcases Merlin's same hope and idealism, and something tells me that he and Merlin actually could have gotten along if not for the freaking prophecy that freaking turns Merlin against him before he's done anything wrong. If Merlin had faced what Mordred had faced as a child, and if Merlin had been forced to live as Mordred had, without any prophecies about the Once and Future King, Merlin and Mordred would have been identical - possibly literally so, considering the show's affinity for pale, dark-haired light-eyed people.

I have a lot of affection for Mordred, actually, because against the odds, he did try, and he only gave up trying when Arthur did something which he could only see as patently unjust (he didn't know the whole story, and it's actually one of the most tragic episodes of the series because you can't actually disagree with anyone for doing what they do, given what they know).

I know it's something of a trend in re-imaginings of the Arthurian legend to focus on Mordred and where he was coming from when he attacked Arthur, but I really like this version, because his motives here don't have anything to do with Arthur not... recognizing him (the most common version of the story is Mordred is Arthur's bastard son, but this is a family show, so needless to say it didn't go that direction). The motives really are all about Mordred and Mordred alone, which, to me, makes him a stronger character. And that's cool.

8. PEOPLE'S GORGEOUS EYES

Especially near the end they really figured out how to light their scenes properly and you end up with gorgeous-ass shots that showcase everyone's gorgeous-ass eyes and it's just really not fair to be honest.

Yeah excuse me I know this is a heartbreaking scene and everything but I'm just very distracted by how blue Merlin's eyes are it's beautiful

DAMN Arthur I know you've been stabbed and everything but your EYES

Sure, I mean, Morgana may have abducted Merlin and could possibly begin torturing him at any moment, but look at how green her eyes are here it's so pretty

Hey wait a tic, when did Merlin's eyes turn green as well?

Of course this is what I remember about this scene. Not that Morgana and Merlin are finally having a proper confrontation since she became openly evil, but that they both have beautiful eyes.

Uther, you are a shadow of your former self, your eyes are not allowed to be that beautiful and green

NIMUEH ARE YOUR EYES EVEN REAL?? LIKE JESUS

Mordred for God's sake I already can't deal with the eyes on this show like stop

MORDRED LITERALLY WHAT DID I JUST SAY

I spend half my time watching this show going "YOUR EYES." You must admit, they have pretty nice eyes. And you must notice that casting has a thing for pale, dark-haired light-eyed people.

7. Guinevere

My favourite version of Guinevere I've seen so far.

It's so easy to make medieval maidens really damsel-y, and Guinevere's probably the most common target to turn into a damsel in distress. And sometimes the show does go there, I'm not going to deny it. But more often than not, Guinevere's on the rescue team.

And hey, here's something cool - she isn't entirely defined by her relationship with Arthur and Lancelot! What a novel concept!

(Actually the musical Camelot was pretty good for that too, but this is about Merlin).

Actually, for being the most famous love triangle in the western world, the show really doesn't play it very much. I mean, it does come up, as a nod to doing the legend justice, but I'm pretty happy that they didn't focus on it so much. This Guinevere is so much more than Arthur's queen and Lancelot's lady. She's warm and friendly and smart and compassionate. I saw it written somewhere that she's what made Camelot human to Merlin, and I one hundred percent agree with that. And of course, she speaks her mind and tells people off when they need to be told off. But more than anything she's a protector - her first instinct is always to protect people.

I adore this Guinevere with my whole heart. I mean, it makes sense to me here, more than anywhere else, why Lancelot falls in love with her and why that conflict is even there. She's fifty kinds of wonderful.

6. DID THEY JUST

For a family show, it can be pretty cruel. As someone who loves feeling things about fiction, it's one of my favourite things about the show.

Hey, remember the time that Merlin was forced to poison Morgana? Or the time that Merlin found his father after a life of not knowing him at all and then his father died? Or the time Merlin fell in love with a girl and then she got killed by Arthur? What about the time Merlin unwittingly caused the death of Arthur's father with his magic? Or Aithusa being crippled and unable to speak?

I mean it gets pretty intense for a show that had a two-parter that was basically a huge fart joke. (We don't talk about the troll episode).

It's kind of one of the things I adore about it. It's a pretty gutsy show sometimes. I mean, two episodes after the episode where Arthur falls prey to a love potion, it has Merlin having to swear on his mother's life that he'll release a dragon, only to realize that he's going to have to poison one of his friends who he's been trying to help the entire season. Or that dragon that Merlin hatched which gave him such unabashed joy is now A) evil, and B) crippled.

It just kinda throws things at you, and you don't see it coming. The show will make you roll your eyes, or smile, or giggle, and then it'll turn around and cut your heart open and it's terrible and cruel and everything I love to see in a show.

5. Cinematography

I know I've talked about this already, but it hasn't become less good since I did, so...

THE SILHOUETTES AND THE MIST

THE BRANCHES

THE ANGLE

THE SYMBOLISM because OF COURSE he's shot through a chain link he's never been more trapped dear god my heart

IF THERE COMES A DAY WHEN I DON'T LOVE THE CRYSTAL CAVE WITH THE VERY FABRIC OF MY BEING THEN YOU HAVE REASONABLE GROUNDS TO BELIEVE IT IS AN IMPOSTER IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL

4. Class 

I love that there is something that complicates everyone's relationship with everyone, and I love that it's class. I love that it's so much harder for Merlin and Arthur to relate to each other because Merlin's a commoner and Arthur's been raised to think the world revolves around him. I love that this show acknowledges class as a factor of the medieval ages (regardless of how anachronistic their version of "medieval" happens to be) and makes it a big factor.

Look, I just love that Merlin is Arthur's servant, because for all the positions people have put Merlin, it's never been there, and the power imbalance that comes around as a result is extremely fascinating. Not to mention the fact that, as far as I know, the Arthurian legend has never had much emphasis put on class - it's usually assumed to be a story about nobles. So to have something not only acknowledge it, but tell the story from the perspective of a servant... it's a unique angle, and one I really appreciate.

I just love analyzing the shift of power that comes as a result of it. Gwaine's introductory episode puts a lot of emphasis on the class divide - Gwaine's brawl versus Arthur's melee, the fact that Merlin is abused and nearly killed by other nobles until Gwaine steps in to defend him, and the punishment falls on Gwaine for attacking noblemen. The fact that class is such a huge dividing factor between Merlin and Morgana even before she went evil, even while Merlin was trying to help her.

It's such an interesting dynamic, and kind of a unique aspect to focus on in terms of the legend, so I appreciate that new point of view, as well as an insight into all the characters just by that alone. It complicates so much, and plays into so much, and it's fascinating. It's one of the main things I analyze when I'm thinking about it to, y'know, think about it.

3. Merlin's background

By which I mostly mean Merlin's mother, because Hunith is awesome and her and Merlin's scenes together are the sweetest thing on earth and also she is kind of a badass.

Also, Merlin as a small-town country boy is actually one of my favourite things in the world. It was clever from a narrative perspective, because it means that when we're experiencing all these Camelot things for the first time, so is he. But from a character perspective, it introduces a whole lot of other issues: A) Merlin doesn't take as much for granted as, for example, Arthur. I mean, Merlin didn't even have a bed until he came to Camelot. B) When he first shows up, Merlin doesn't have a clue about Camelot castle life. C) Given his town's attitude toward royalty and nobility (and their attitude toward his town), he's not the biggest fan of them, and it definitely shows in his first few interactions with Arthur.

Basically, it's such a good character thing. I mean, it changes nothing about the story, but it introduces a whole host of things that suddenly make sense about Merlin's character traits - his naivete, his disregard for rank, etc.

Also, I just really need to express my adoration for Merlin's mother, and Merlin's relationship with his mother. On a show where so much conflict is drawn from parental relationships - Uther refuses to acknowledge Morgana as his daughter, Uther and Arthur butt heads over what kind of king Arthur's going to be, Uther lies about how Arthur's mother died, and so on - it's really refreshing to see a parental figure who's so undeniably warm and loving. And her relationship to the main character is so sweet, and so important, which is impressive considering she appears in all of four episodes through five seasons. But Hunith is the only person that Merlin has ever consistently put before Arthur, which means that she's pretty freaking important. And she's wonderful and brave and loving and I live for when she appears. She's my ultimate favourite guest character. And Merlin's scenes with her - which are always bursting with quiet love and affection - are a beautiful contrast to the tense scenes between other children and their parents - generally Morgana and Arthur with Uther, and another nice character thing about Merlin's upbringing in comparison to Arthur's.

2. Colin Morgan's lovely face

By which I mean his expressions. Because Colin Morgan's acting consistently blows me away. He has a gift of communicating everything without saying a word. He's also reason #2345876 why I adore the show Humans. He is a treasure, and I find myself thinking when I watch him, "Y'know, I'm glad talented actors like this exist in the world, and I'm glad he's found success."

So, a non-comprehensive list of some of my favourite moments of Colin Morgan as Merlin. In chronological order.

The first time he sees his mother with the sickness. The horror, the disturbed-ness in his face is heart-breaking and perfect.

See, this is what I'm talking about. Do you see the love in Merlin's eyes right now? He's talking to his mother. He's about to sacrifice his life for her. And you can see how much he loves her. My heart. 

The joy of doing magic.

The resignation at having to suppress it.

This is one of my favourites of Merlin's smiles. It's mischief and humour and joy all at once.

Being threatened by Morgana. Note: discomfort, but he's not entirely sure how to react. Compare and contrast with: 

The moment Merlin is forced to really treat Morgana as his enemy. Poor sweet-hearted idealist, he held out hope even after the chaining him up and leaving him for dead thing. You know exactly what he's thinking in this frame: I don't have a choice.

The only thing holding this episode together was Colin Morgan's acting, to be honest, because it certainly wasn't the writing. This expression hits me so hard because he's doing magic but that joy from earlier doesn't seem to be there anymore. The weariness is here now; magic is a burden, too. That weariness will become increasingly common as seasons go by.

LITERALLY NOTHING IN THE WORLD PISSES ME OFF MORE THAN THE FACT THAT THE KNIGHTS PUT THIS EXPRESSION ON MERLIN'S FACE. That glum, submissive expression - he's being bullied, and he's used to it. (Tangent: I aggressively don't care that it's supposed to be the knights "playing a prank" or "teasing" or whatever, or that it's meant to be brotherly. It isn't. It can't be. Because if they refuse to let their servant eat, he can't fight that. There are class barriers in his way. And it's been reiterated a lot through the seasons that higher ranking people are completely within their rights to be assholes like this. For god's sake, nobles have thrown knives at Merlin without punishment. It isn't brotherly, because Merlin isn't the knights' equal, and can't respond in kind. Never mind that they end up letting him eat in the end. It's a cruel joke, made crueler by the fact that they completely hang their rank privileges over him in order to make it work. Sorry. When Merlin gets sad, I get defensive.)

On his acting, note: he's glum, but he isn't overdoing it - you can tell there's a bit of normalcy to it. It's the perfect level of quiet-glum.

Fear, determination, and what is it that he's aiming at his opponent here...? It isn't quite defiance. It's almost pity. By the way, this mixture of emotions is one great reason to appreciate Colin Morgan's fabulous acting.

THIS IS THE REASON I LOVE THIS EPISODE. That is pure unadulterated joy on Merlin's face. He is actually crying from joy. I will never not love Merlin's love for dragons. He is watching a dragon hatch and doing something good with his magic and there is nothing over the top at all about his reaction because it's so genuine. I love it. 

This is the real face of someone trying hard to hold back tears. I know the face. It's this face. He nailed it. He nailed it perfectly. 

The reverence and awe Merlin has on his face when Arthur pulls the sword from the stone. The reverence and awe he has even though he completely orchestrated the whole thing. Perfect acting choice, 100% perfect. 

This is an expression I like to call Quiet Grim Satisfaction. Quiet because the expression is small, because he doesn't want people to notice his reaction, but it's there.  

I love this because of Gwaine and Arthur's faces in the background. Some odd glowing creature crawls away, both Gwaine and Arthur are like "WTF." Merlin doesn't look like "WTF." There's wonder on his face. It was the perfect reaction for his character.

Sometimes I'm in the mood to cut my heart open, and when that happens, I look at this picture!

Remember the joy Merlin felt when he hatched that dragon? This is his expression upon realizing that same dragon is now crippled, mute, and in league with his enemy. Absolutely heart-broken and helpless. Get this lovely talented bastard away from me.

Sometimes I'm in the mood to cut my heart open...!

I like to call this expression: Merlin Hates Himself. A.K.A the one where Merlin has to tell a terrible, probably self-incriminating lie to his best friend for the greater good. The worst thing about it is that he's resigned to it. You can see it in his face. He knows what he's going to say and he hates it but he thinks he has to. 

I love this because he's smiling, which is usually a carefree thing on Merlin, but it isn't here. He's being extremely careful and focused, actually, you can tell by how intensely he's watching Arthur. Reasons: the jokes are just a vessel to keep Arthur talking and keep him from passing out. When you can read that difference in demeanour just from a picture, that is a good sign.

Regret, but overall, ruthlessness, and again that weary resignation. It's interesting because I'm noting all these hints of emotion I didn't read when I watched the episode. I never saw regret in that scene before. Looking at this screencap it's almost all I see. Which is apt and wonderful. 

I swear to God, this was me holding back. This was my non-comprehensive list. There were like nine more that I was going to use but didn't. But you know what? I said this post was all love, so no shame. 

And now, the number one thing I love about Merlin:

1. Friendships

The main relationships the show draws from are friendships. The few episodes that do have some basis stemming from romantic love - which, by the way, I can only count four of them in my head - usually use it as an opportunity to focus on other relationships of that character as well. For instance, Gaius's old love, a woman to whom he used to be engaged, shows up. The show takes it as a chance to explore the Gaius-Merlin bond. Merlin falls in love with a Druid girl? Time to take a closer look at the fading friendship between Arthur and Merlin. Or how it uses the Gwen/Lancelot tryst in Lancelot du Lac to pose the question "How conditional is Arthur's love (platonic or otherwise) for Gwen and Lance? How conditional is Merlin's?" 

The most important relationships on this show, barring Arthur and Guinevere, are either entirely platonic friendships or parent-child relationships. And this is so wonderful because my default is always to read for friendship over romance. You'll often catch me complaining at TV shows when a couple starts kissing because, even though I saw it coming, it seems to me like a cheap way to establish a relationship. So when I see something grow into a trusting relationship on TV that A) feels earned and in-character, and B) doesn't establish romantic feelings as the root of it, it makes me almost giddy. Friendships are so taken for granted, but it is one of the strongest bonds you can have, I think, and this show plays on that more than anything else.

(It's also the reason that all the Merlin/Arthur shipping is kind of my pet peeve, but this post is ALL LOVE SHUT UP CRITICAL THOUGHT)

And it isn't only that the friendships are important. It's rare to see a show without an important friendship, I'd say. It's that the you get to see the main friendship grow from nothing, through common goals and shared experience (and a mutual biting sense of humour, I won't hesitate to say) and that seems to be what most TV hesitates to showcase - I know tons of shows that have focused on the growth of a romantic relationship, but friendships seem to be one of those things that most shows establish as having either A) always been there, or B) the ability to appear instantaneously. That's alright, most of the time - hell, the Scoobies on Buffy pretty much happen like that, and Buffy is basically my religion - but it's refreshing to see a show focus on the journey of actually forming a friendship.

And it isn't only Merlin and Arthur. Merlin and Guinevere's friendship is so important. Uther and Gaius's long-standing trust is important. Arthur's brotherhood with his knights are important. Merlin's camaraderie with the knights - most significantly Gwaine and Lancelot - is important. Merlin's doomed friendship with Morgana is important. Guinevere and Morgana's sisterly love is important. There are a lot of important relationships on the show, and a solid 85% of them are friendships that you get to see blossom and grow. It's wonderful. It's the biggest selling point of the show for me.

I just love when a show spends so much time and energy establishing friendships. It's my favourite thing.

So, there you have it. Ten things I love about Merlin. There's more. I could go on for a while. But these are the ones that came immediately to mind when I decided to make this post.

I apologize.